Khaisah Hashley

One of my girls gave birth, the first one actually for all of us. So, we were a bit jakun and OVERexcited. Trust me, the noises and havocs in the hospital and Zaza's house can actually beat the noises that I had in my class of 30 students.

F: It's my turnnn to hold Khaisah!

M: No dude, you dah pegang dia tadi. It's my turn I've been waiting..

F: (still holding Khaisah)... *Khaisah wails* Oh my Godddd..why is she cryingg? Ok breathe breathee..relaxx relaxx

R: Dude, she doesn't like youuuu

T: Give me Khaisah laaa..maybe she'll like me..

Z: Meh sini Khaisahh.. (Khaisah senyap)

F: Why Khaisah nangiss Z?

Z: Ntahh you...

... and along those lines la..ahahaha

Regardless of the noises, shrieks, screams.. That was one the best moments I've had with my girls. My girls, those that I grew up with.. one of the oldest bunch I know and trust in the world. Regardless of anything.

Pic by Zaza's Iphone/Facebook

Welcome Khaisah bte Hashley. You are loved by all aunties and uncles around you since day one you were in your mummy's tummy. We can't wait for you to grow in front of our eyes and teach you lots of things. To H and Z, CONGRATULATIONS darlings. To parenthood. We're here if you need help. Date night? Third honeymoon? Fourth? 

 and to August babies..Happy birthday!

Not the End of the Road

I always have tiny spots for Boyz II Men and their songs.. let alone this number accompanied by some orchestra-ish background! Swoon sigh faint. This is love man. This is what I call music in my own dictionary.

I've watched them performed live once upon a time; it was in 2007/2008 when they came to Kuala Lumpur and did a two days showcase in Genting. It was surreal watching them do their acapella-R&B-black-man-voice-tarik-menarik, Boyz II Men will never failed you in any way. 

I would love to see them back again, which I know it's quite impossible for them to come back again to KL. Perhaps Singapore or Jakarta? I don't mind spending for them.

Ok, I gilaaa already! 

Enjoy this video. Live in Japan, 2009. The entire album is in iTunes Japan, you can buy or download it from there! Enjoy!

Ramadhan 1432

Ramadhan, we meet again. How we've missed you.

It's the second day of Ramadhan, and I've been spending my Iftar at home and having home cooked meals since day one. With the havocs of Param here and there, so malas man to go. LDP by 5.15pm dah jam teruk. So, for now, I feel that there's no point of me going to any param unless I really crave for some paramness lovin'.. *teringat kuih sampan pelita at TTDI*..

Anyway, Ramadhan is not just all about food. Yeah, partially you celebrate it with food, but that's just because you're hungry. But Ramadhan is mainly about patience and tolerance with one another. It's all about doing the good deeds and refraining self from bad deeds. It's also about being grateful on the things you have in life, the food that are being served on the table, the secured job you have to put food on the table, the clothes you wear everyday and etc etc. It's about moderation, not boastful. 

So, muhasabah diri ok? Paham?

Selamat berpuasa friends. Embrace it to the fullest and wishing that Allah blesses you and family with smiles, happiness and togetherness. 

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Tari Tualang Tiga

It's a shame when we are Malay (or any other races), but we don't know our own traditional dance. 

I was a dancer danced before in school, from Tarian Ulik Mayang (I was the puteri ke-empat ok, LOL), some Joget and Zapin for a prize giving ceremony and some charity dinner , and I did some contemporary dance in uni before when Puteri Gunung Ledang the Musical was a big hit. 

I missed it so much. After watching my students rehearsed for Malam Kebudayaan Melayu 2011 just now, old sparks with Malay cultural dances lit again. Especially after watching this: 

How rich is that?! Malay Evolution! 

So friends, any ideas where I can get classes that teach the dance using this particular song?

Well Wishes for 26

Terima kasih daun keladi kerana menge-wish saya happy birthday.

For this year,I'm not expecting anything from anyone, even from my parents. Usually, weeks before birthdays, sisters will ask me in private on the things that I want and they would tell the dad, and dad would get it for me. Same goes to my other sisters. But for this year, I said to myself, those are materials and I think, as a 26 years old girl (cehceh gegirl lagi tu), and soon to be married (Insya Allah), enough with daddy's gift. Instead of asking and bearing gifts from them, why not do something beneficial or fruitful, like creating a business project that I may be interested in? 

Dad, you can provide me with some capital. *grins*

Aku memamg cakap tak serupa bikin. 

But dad, janji akan kasi balik capital tu when untung sudah dapat.

Yelah tu.

But belom cuba belom tahu kan?

Amin.

Thank you friends for the well wishes. God bless.

Teacher Diaries 1: It Ain't Easy

As most of my friends (and maybe you) would already know, the one thing that I do for living is I teach. Hence, the title lecturer was given to me when I stepped my foot at an instituition that I am currently serving.

Being a lecturer is a title if you teach at a University or college, but at the end of the day you are still a teacher. Some people might think being a teacher is not a glamorous job. Trust me, I have 'friends' who thinks that way. But we, teachers fret not, because we know we have nothing to lose. In every sense.

Lecturing Teaching is not easy. The content of the subjects MIGHT be easy; for example, teaching grammar - past tense, nouns/verbs and all the makneneks, but how do take the subjects and incorporate it effectively to your students? Just lecture? Showing the powerpoint slides?

" Ok class, today's lesson is on grammar. So, our chapter for today is past tense. Ok, what is past tense? Past tense is a grammatical tense that places an action or situation in the past of the current moment or prior to.... Simple past is formed for regular verbs by adding -d or -ed to the root of a word. For example class, 'He walked to the shop', or 'They danced all night at the club'....." and bla bla bla.

Sigh. The most boring lesson ever. I've to admit it, it's pretty dry isn't it? Probably the lecturer copies it from Wikipedia and paste it to the powerpoint slides. Any below-average students also can do that right?

Lecturing on GRAMMAR: Simple Past Tense. 

BUT who in the world LECTURES on grammar? Grammar is like mathematics. Who the hell lectures on maths? You teach maths, drill the students on the formulas and ask them to practise practise and practise. Same as grammar.

So, the point here it's not about grammar or mathematics. It's about the the patience and me being a lecturer as a title, but at the end of the day, I'm a teacher. I teach and I guide and I'll make sure students PASS (not by giving them FREE marks, but making sure that they understand the subject), and NOT by making sure that they just PASS but ensuring they can fully utilize the knowledge in their daily life as well as future undertakings.

Just like parents eh? Except that I don't give money.

Membebel like parents? Totally.

Come and be in my shoes, and you'll know how it feel.

You got NO patience and tolerance?
Emotional outbursts out of the blue? 

Like seriously, don't bother trying.

Let Go, Push Away

Towards the end of 2010, I faced a whirlwind trauma friendship drama with some people whom I used to be really good friends with, but now, we are not anymore. How do I deal with it? How do I feel about it then and now?

I was hurt. Obviously I was. They were my friends. Good friends pulak tu. But I seriously am not sure what went wrong, the whole 'we're-buddies-I-love-you' kinda thing went down the drain. All these happened because of the lack of ability in controlling emotions and to think rationally. I believe so. We are adults right, why can't talk like adults? If one is scared of confronting, there are always emails right? Why must we use FB in portraying your dissatisfaction and hatred? Your emotional outburst in public, is it really worth it?

 

So, to cut the story short, I learnt a lot from this. At first, I was so angry and I will blame everybody. I still do though, but I'm letting it go now. Not being the best friend that I used to be to them, but accepting the fact that we're no longer 'friends' that we used to be and things won't be the same anymore. Why this happened? Waallahualam, I don't have the answer for it. Blaming others won't do justice, blaming diri sendiri pulak unfair? Nay? Mungkin ini semua ada hikmah nye tersendiri. Remember that God has determined everything that was/were/going to happened in our lives.

 

A wise friend of mine used to remind me this whenever dugaan-dugaan kecil ini berlaku:

1) We can't force people to be friends with us. We can't make people love us all the time. That makes us human. 

2) What can we gain by not being their friends? Are they the ones who gave you shelter, food and money? Or even jobs? So, what do you have to lose? Nothing right?

3) Sabar. Ini benda kecil aja.

 

It's true right?

So, let go. Stop analyzing. Stop complaining. Life is short for this. There's more to life than bickering with people who is not worth your time, so why sweat over it?

Self reminder that is.